Post Camp

I have a feeling that Blizzard has my timetable with them, coz they release major patches when I am not free. They released WotLK a week before my finals last year... and this time, they released 3.1 the week with my camp on the weekend.

Brief outline of patch 3.1:
Ul-doo-ar raid finally opens with new bosses and hard modes. Mobs actually are HARD to go through. Bosses are harder and much more fun.
New gear, especially T8 and legendary healing mace.
Argent tornament, new means to get pets and mounts. I still do not understand the story behind it as I was too busy to explore it.
Spell/talent revamp. Mana regen nerf. I hate it, but I hope my build is still viable as before.

So there's all these new changes but I have not fully emmersed myself in all of it. Heck, due to some changes in schedule, I don't actually have time to do more than just the raid this week. Somehow I get a feeling that these are all signs that God doesn't want me playing anymore >.< Right... and the reason why I was away during the weekend: 6th Year CAMP! Originally from another batch, I started out only know a handful of people there. I got there way earlier than the rest and I was so lost in that first hour. I didn't see anyone I knew and I don't know who the rest were, so I could not find where we were supposed to meet. Only when I saw familiar faces at the registration booth that I calmed down and started enjoying myself with the food and drinks. I probably drank too much wine too fast, and I ended up with a headache for the rest of the afternoon. A slight mishap, but I immediately I made new friends. As the sun was setting, we finally made our way to the boat to get to the island. This boat was different from the one I was on last year, and there were no seats out in the open. So I couldn't get a good shot of the sunset, but this was the only thing I could muster.



The stars were emerging as we started our walk from the jetty to the dorms. I got my wish, somewhat... to walk under the stars with her. We finally made our way to the dorms. The first thing I noticed were the herd of Quokkas in the courtyard. Last year, I really wanted to get good shots of quokkas, but this overabundance was just scary. Anyway, we all found beds to sleep in (I got a single room which was good) and we got ready for the night's party. Dress code: Mad Hatters.




There was supposed to be a prize for the best hat, so I put a little bit more effort into making mine. Sadly it didn't win me the prize, but I had fun. There were really good hats, and there were party hats on the table for those who were lazy to bring their own. After dinner, we all hung around gossiping, chatting, getting quokka's drunk, etc... What I really wanted at that point in time was to leave the rowdy drunk crowd and head to the beach and walk in the cold sand with the stars in the sky. It was sad to go alone, so I didn't. Sigh.

We ended up playing asshole 'big two' which I do not like at all. The fundamental flaw in the game is the winner usually stays the winner and it is hard for the loser to move up. Although I was very much against the game, I joined in anyway. I remained in the lower half of the rankings and hated it. Luckily, they did not include shots of vodka as a punishment just yet. However, when we DID include it, some of us were too tired to continue. heh.

The night was horrible. My room was at the entrance, so there were too many people walking in and out shouting and laughing every now and then. It took me a while to get sleep in the end, but I managed to in the end. UNFORTUNATELY, I was plagued by unpleasant dreams.

The next morning, I got up to a gloomy morning. The weather forcast was said to be thunderstorm in the late morning, and I can sense the incoming storm. In all directions, you can see the rain falling in the distance. There was only small patches of sky, and occasionally we'll see a ray of golden sun seeping through, reminding me that there is always light in time of despair... cheezey, but there it was. We walked her to the jetty that gloomy morning, as she was leaving on the early boat. We said our goodbyes and I was really sad to see her go...

Nightmares

Lately, I have been plagued by nightmares. Not really scary ones, but enough to wake me up a few times at night in a cold sweat. It doesn't help that mosquitoes are constantly buzzing at your ear. I mean, I switch on the fan to blow away the mosquitoes, and end up awake because of un-oiled buzzing fan noise. Unrestful sleep.

Dream 1:
I attribute this dream to too much travelling during the CNY period and watching too much Amazing Race Asia. I mean they screened the whole season 3 back to back on CNY day.

So in my dream, I drive/run from toll-gate to tell-gate, and have to do various tasks there, to get through to the next toll-gate. While being chased by something... Another team, with guns or something. Anyway, its just running and running...

Dream 2:
I can't think of any reference for this one, but it is about me being a spy in the other team's camp, and the teams are like police vs terrorists. They really kill. At least in my dreams. Then something like a get together, a contest if you will, between the two factions. And I am in between the whole mess.

In the end, I end up running from the two factions, through neutral cities. And for some strange reason I am suddenly resourceful, like Macguyver, in escaping...

Dream 3:
I probably miss my computer too much with this one. I dreamt that I finally reached home, where my computer is. And instead of playing my favourite game, I get too much distraction to play it. It isn't much of a nightmare, but it is really weird. I dreamt as though it was second nature to me to turn on my computer when I get home, but I don't use it. It was like it became a habit to turn it on, but not to use it. I DON'T NOT USE COMPUTERS. I don't know how else to discribe it. It wasn't me in my dream. IT WASN'T ME.

I cannot remember my other dreams, but it was weird dreams. I am pretty sure I will get more tonight... we'll see...


Edit:
Dream 4:
As I suspected, I will have another bizzaire dream and it came through. I dreamt that I was in Singapore, trying to locate the 5x5x5 Rubik cube. While I searched the stores along Orchard Road, I stumbled upon a charity function, and unintendedly won some prize. I also manage to meet up with my band mates from NJC, who also helped me look for the cube. Despite that, I didn't get the cube. And suddenly it was a race to the airport and it was nearing my departure time.

I guess this dream stemmed from my desire to get hold of the cube and me worrying about making it on time for my flight tomorrow. I know for a fact that even though we check in 2hours earlier, we can still hang around doing nothing for quite some time before boarding. But my last flight home, we were actually called to board, something that never happens to time conscious people like me and Chua... weirder things have happened though...

Love Struck

They say it isn't fair to like someone when you have someone else in mind. But there is a story of a ladder of friends/potential girlfriends that every guy possess. There is that epitome of the perfect girl I have in mind, and then there is that nice girl within arm's reach. The question is whether I will give up waiting for something that may never happen and settle for the next best thing, or persue the unreachable hoping that everything is as perfect as I imagined.

Or like any buaya, persue all targets and make a decision then.

I cannot tell you much of the girls I have in mind, as I do not know them that well. It isn't the beauty that is attracting me, it is something deeper that I see in them. Something that makes me want to know them. If only I dare myself to go talk to them more...

The interesting part of this tale is my REM dreams. I was getting married to someone behind a veil. I have no idea who it is. I see and feel my friends around me, but her identity remains a mystery to me. Everything seemed perfect. Then suddenly...

Violence everywhere. Aliens or monsters or undead or shambling corporate presence appear and we engage in an all out war with them. My instinct was to protect this wife-to-be and everyone else around me. It was like going through a Die Hard movie. The funny thing is that this isn't the first time I had this dream. I have had several similar dreams of me getting married to someone behind a veil and a battle after or during. I never knew her name...

It's weird when you have the same dream three nights in a row... Ironic thing is that I cannot remember what the dream is... I know there is running around.

I wake up constantly tossing and turning around trying to get the mosquitos off my feet. My bed broke. I have a cold.

Strange that there are now mosquitos in my bedroom. I wonder how they got there, when before this they did not exist up this high. While I was at my computer yesterday, I smack one poor critter and manage to damage his legs and wings... Interesting to see a thorax and abdomen full of my blood, with no head or legs or wings... Just a balloon of blood. I gave it a little squeeze and some blood oozed out. I'm keeping the rest as a symbol to the other mosquitos to STAY AWAY.

I think the dreams started out with me watching War of the Worlds. It's a movie of great graphics but not so good choice of cast. Though I should comment on Dahkota Fanning on her 'natural' act. Anyway, the movie has a lot of violence... not from the aliens, but from the people themselves. In acts of desperation, it's everyone for himself. The need for survival. Adam Smith... But John Nash says everyone for himself too, but while doing that, we should help one another. Ah, nice music from Beautiful Mind during that revelation...

Back to War of the Worlds, it's mostly about surviving, and what people do to survive. Desperation. It brings out qualities in many of us... Heroism, hopelessness, terror, retaliation...

Then again, because of my Lord of the Ring's marathon, it could also have affected my dreams... Heroism... sigh...

Another weekend over, another painful time to get up early and go to 8am lectures... I got up normally after three tiring nightmares. I really hate them nightmares. I mean I am constantly wary of the 'being' that is always on me. I know there is a psychological reasoning behind this stupid sensation of being squashed. oh well, I am just glad it's over... I changed up and did something new, putting on my free pair of contacts. I didn't have much trouble putting them on and my eye didn't hurt as much. I guess I am getting used to it... I was 'late' so I decided to skip breakfast...

I got to school on time, but not as early as I hoped. Stupid cleaners just throw away anything they see on the floor. Can'y you see that they are IMPORTANT? I guess not, since you are just a cleaner, won't know what is the difference. It happened during the AIDS week. My beautiful poster GONE just like that. I really wish they smarten up and see what they are throwing away...

Anyway boring lectures, fell asleep twice... dashed to have my breakfast/lunch, dashed to the computer lab to print my elective report, dashed back to PBL room, hoping to get things done as soon as possible so that I can spend more time with her. But it back fires...

PBL was a more fun one today, more joking around. I like this PBL group. Not that my previous one was bad, just more study orientated. This time, though serious work is done, it's still fun. I miss Gowri though... It would be the same without her, but this is a new atmosphere I think I would enjoy, and would miss it once it's gone... I guess it gets better everytime and it all can't be the same...

PBL done, Yee Neng decides to have a meeting... I couldn't really get anything done in the meeting, my body may be there, but my mind is somewhere else, and my heart is somewhere else... As I said, my plans for today didn't go really well... All I wanted was to spend as much time as I can with her, but I am caught in the middle of different committees here and there, and I can't be as free for her as I like. I don't know what to do. As much as I want to spend time with her, I also want these things to do so that I get to write something on my report card. I don't know what's the use and I don't know why I still keep doing it.

I rush back to my apartment to look after it as the workers were finally finishing Kenneth's room. Evelyn came later and she was really angry at me. I know that I am wrong, and I tried so much to apologise, but I guess I am not as thoughtful as I thought I was. I guess that this was what Sheena meant by 'taking her for granted'. I had my dose, I am guilty, I feel guilty. I want so much to change my stupid attitude. All I have is one more chance... ONE more...

The workers were done at about 1600hrs and I waited for Choon Keong and Yick Yeong to come back. As soon as they were back, I rushed back to school...

Dance practice was a bore and for me, a waste. I'm sorry that I came late, but I don't think it would make a difference if I came earlier. I danced twice or two and a half times, and slacked most of the time. Before I knew it, it was time to go. oh well.. Had dinner with Yuhana and Aishah and then, I head to the library to do some research... BORING

I woke up this morning, waking up from a dream that I would never want to come true. *gasp. And I am so near of achieving that dream... I must be more careful in the future and so I slept again...

I woke up again from a restless attempt to fall back asleep, disturbed by Sau Ming entering the toilet and taking her bath. How I know this?, don't ask. I just know. So I wake up, get dressed nicely for absolutely no reason. I put toothpaste onto my toothbrush and waited... and waited.. and waited for Sau Ming to get out of the bathroom. In what seems like eternity, I went to check my handphone. Ah, two messages... oo, from Sheena, what a day to start! Recieved at 00:00... acurate sia? Anyway, I replied. and waited abit more. Then, decided to read another chapter of Angela's Ashes and before I know it, Sau Ming is out. I rush to the bathroom, wash up and I'm ready to goo see the Juniors. haha

First people I see, is Ben Shyen, a junior and close friend of mine in RI Boarding. He was chatting with a nice girl, Cindy, I think. They just met and well, that is Ben for you, playboy, but true to one. They started asking about Orientation, Can I not be IMCC? Girls can't be IMCC right? (of course not, girls are URCCAD) They are already targeting me for IMCC, how? (Volunteer to be leader or BBQ rep) Later got English placement test, how? (just do la, worse come to worse, just take English class for the rest of your sem...) And so, it was already 9am (i woke up at 8) and we proceded to the MPH. My God, were we this serious/stupid-looking/blur/cocky last sem?. I left them there and proceeded to the computer lab.

First thing I do is to check my mail and circles99. not much activity since I left. and I left for like a whole day or so... I wonder what and how to make people use it more. Oh yeah, post up a new announcement, delete a few, make my usual stupid comments and tempted to start a new poll again, but I don't have any ideas at the moment. maybe later, something small... Next thing I noticed, last people logged in was at 12mn, and I really think that we are a bunch of nerds that have a regular sleeping time before 12. I logged in at 3am before and still the max was 1am i think. sigh...

Then I checked Utopia, my province is doing swell, I finally got a nice team going, with me as the Mage and two other Thieves. They kill the Wizards, I do the MAJOR spells, do long lasting damage. oh yeah, I got LOTS of FAILED spells, and I am glad that I am such a strong Mage... hehehe. with a 5TPA and 2.5WPA, I AM INVINCIBLE!!! MUAHHAHAHAHA. Then, the worst thing that could happen happened... IMU server couldn't log me into Utopia anymore! Stupid IMU server.

Since I had nothing else to do, ah, well, I should just blog right? And now, I wait for the end of the day, probably meet up with the Juniors of mine, still freezing their fingers off writing an essay now... Which reminds me of the time that we had our English Placement Test. Okay, I'm going to edit the M203 Dairy...

Now, it is almost times up for the Juniors in the hall. I shall go disturb them and probably scare them now.

Shall i persue a dream that I had last night? the thing is, I am quite comfortable with the situation as it is and I dont want to repeat the same mistake I did before... I can wait.. But i am not sure how long she will wait for me...